Basking in Snow

It's my 5th day away from home and everythings looking good My host parent was great - she was very friendly and she's very caring. The only flaw in this festival is the climate! It is sooo cooolld!

It sucks that I have to like bring some academic stuffs with me but then this makes it more fun and worthwhile - having fun while doing work. This the first time ever in my life that I saw a snow! More stories next time .

That's it. I cannot love somebody who doesn't want to be loved.. meaning: to be loved in general; to recognize that no matter how crappy this world may seem to be sometimes, love still exists.

I had this conversation with him around midnight. And I really dunno if it's just because we're both sleepy but we talked about some serious stuff and he sorta tripped a bit. And so I hung up the phone, crawled to bed and then dozed off...... crying. It felt good - its been a while since I last experienced a pang of loneliness. I felt sad for him but at sometimes I can't help but ponder on why does he have to do these things to himself. Maybe God had better plans for me.. maybe He's asking me to wait some more.

I went to the embassy today to give my final requirements. In a matter of five days I'll be leaving for Norway! yay!

If I could have the power to turn back the hands of time, I would turn it back to last week. I spent the whole week with him - long, heart - to - heart conversations over a cup of frappucino..  I have finally allowed myself to fall for the guy. I don't even know if he also feels the same way or he just sees me as his 'older sister'. But then, that's what's love all about right - not expecting anything in return. Tho there are still times at night when I wonder what would it feel like to be loved by someone like him........... enough said

I have midterms tomorrow. My only flaw is that I won't be here during Valentine's Day.

The first month of 2005 is almost over and I'll be leaving school in a couple of months time.

Right now, there are so many things going on in my life that sometimes it feels like am riding a raft on a stormy sea. I was leafing through my diary last weekend and I notice that I've been very emotional for the last couple of months.. yeah, I've been such a cry - baby for the last months or so. I am leaving for Norway in two weeks to attend ISFIT 2005 and right now, I am trying to work on the case analysis that I'd be presenting tomorrow for the annual AGORA Youth Awards (until now I dunno how was I able to get in the top 50). My relationship with the guy I've been talking about in my recent entry has been good.. though right now am starting to get scred (re: graduation).

I am stressed out...

Christmas just passed by like a breeze.. Perhaps its because of my seemingly hectic schedule.. or perhaps because of the fiscal crisis

Anyways, I hope everyone had a good Christmas